Last home study when well! We are so blessed with our case worker. She is so down to earth and went over basics for me...Like BONDING and the first days and at the hospital emotions..
PURE PANIC
Derek wanted to ask if we could have one each week. I know this is the thought going through his mind! So the house would be kept extremely neat and tidy! AND SPOTLESS!!! As if we were hosting a PARTY. I was praying he wouldn't ask her that.. Still I wanted to clean more....The floors weren't clean enough for me...and my other things not Perfect!
Before the day....I was, freaking out, not Derek. He doesn't panic at anything!
I was really freaking out. I even cleaned closet to only know she didn't have to go in. I left the door opened and even offered. Our time was originally scheduled for earlier, lunch time...So I went and bought things for lunch but then it got moved. But I did make tea and lemonade and cookies. NONE of which we needed anyway until she left. I devoured the ENTIRE PLATE OF COOKIES.... Since I was so emotionally drained.
You don't realize how much you worry mentally about what things you are going to be asked. So you pray, pray so more and then it's over and you are drained from worrying. I felt the next day from cleaning and worrying that I had been hit by a mad truck and the questions weren't even bad. We just recapped most of what we had discussed the first. WHICH WAS A LOT!!! She told us we had covered most of the information in our first session. We didn't have BIG issues. I should hope not. She did tell us, many people have a few things to iron out before adoption. Thank goodness the Lord has placed us on the same page.
MEETING RANGER
She met Ranger, our dog. Yes, I warned her he gets excited and might just show his love by weeing on her! AND HE did....all over her darling, black heals!! Thank goodness I knew right were I had placed the baby wipes. I apologized for his bladder. She told me not to worry. I though, was IN PANIC!!! Freaking out!!! Trying to get Ranger to just chase his toys..
The TALK
Then sitting across the room on our couch, you think you would feel so relaxed; I felt open and not knowing how to sit to talk to this kind lady while she explained the LEGAL stuff to me more...I think Derek felt worried when he saw the tears in my eyes feel up as she explained the Birth Day and emotions..Then the tears came on. Derek came to my rescue by sitting by my side. I could only imagine giving up the most precious gift of a child to someone.... It made me sad at once, and joyous at another that someone could be able and willing to give a better life. not better, but more opportunities to a child. It was hard to imagine this day will come, when we least expect it...May not be soon, or may be soon.
I think that is why I was so worn out the next day. So what is next you ask?
WAITING FOR APPROVAL!!! After she dictates our information then we wait.
It goes before a board at Abilene Christina Homes, and they approve or not...
What do I need to do?
Get my adoption scrapbook finished and the Hardest letter the BirthMother Letter, BML!!! This is the letter you send to mothers looking to place their child for adoption. Hardest job ever!!!
Wait and pray...until next blog....Please keep our Birth Mother and her family in your prayers, God knows who and when. Hugs
The Waiting Opitz's Family!
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