I LOVE YOU MORE....

THERE IS A WONDERFUL SONG WRITTEN BY MATTHEW WEST...called I love you MORE!
We had the opportunity to see him perform at the Grand Ole Opry this past Wednesday night..Little did I know I would cry as he explained why he wrote the song.
He explained he had some friends that has a son, through adoption and every night when he had the chance he would go to his married friend's house to eat!! Because that is were single writers in Nashville get fed! And their son, every night would play a game so he wouldn't have to go to bed..the son would repeat after his dad would say I love you....the son would keep doing it so he could stall the bed time!! One night while Matthew was over there they had placed a picture on their fridge. Jax had made that said." I love you more..." It had on it a big sun, moon and stars.... By the end of the story my face was covered in streams of tears...I didn't know that MWest asked his fans to write letters of their lives to help him write songs...but it makes a song more than just words that rhyme but impresses thought provoking Loving ideas....and once again occurred to me..that in reality I am ready to have a child and hug him and tell him we love him/her more than words can every say. Derek and I both squeezed each others hands feeling the vibe of what once again touched my heart to reaffirm adoption is an answer to our prayer for starting our family. I've met many women say their husbands wouldn't be able to adopt..and I think wow..adoption is what the Lord did for us. For Moses....It isn't easy, but life isn't always easy..sometimes you must really soul search and know that the Lord has a plan. I met a woman in Wal-mart that wanted children so badly and I felt her pain. I explained to her adoption isn't an answer for everyone, but it is a beautiful journey and we knew it was right for us the moment we sat at our orientation. Adoption is building a family through a different journey than anyone else will ever know. No one will ever understand that the bond you feel for your child begins before you see or feel a heart beat. It begins when writing the letters, crying after you know it is the right thing for you and your spouse, when you sit and talk to your case worker, or someone calls you and ask how are you in your adoption process....That is when it all begins...It is different and Amazing all at once...Next time you hear the song....listen and feel the power of the word!

Watching the kids play and thinking...

While waiting you imagine the child's giggles and coos.. You watch them run around and ponder the thought of the wonderful moments you will have giving your child his/her first bath, stinky diaper.,,potty training fun, the moments when you have to rock them a sleep after the first night and then you flash to the thoughts of what to say when you meet that special young woman. Here is my prayer for her and for us...Until we meet on that special day, We pray for you and for your child. No matter of the outcome, you are a blessing to open your heart to meet us....


Dear Lord,

We pray that you will give us the strength when we meet our child's mother for us all to be at peace. For her to know that she is a blessing to us and to her child. To make the transition a stress free time and fill her heart not with pain, but of love. Please turn the emptiness into joy. We ask that you fill her heart with welcome love and help us to help her to know we love her beyond measure that we are here for her and for her child. Let her know her feelings are important and we too want the best for her and child.  Please surround her with your stillness and peace in mind, body and soul. Give us the words to help her know us better and to comfort us all. Let her know that we too are nervous and excited but want whatever she feels she needs. Lord, please help us all to grow a special bond that only you can create. Create it though love and kindness.  In all this we ask and praise your name for the glory of the Lord for whenever the time may come in your name we will be here waiting for that special time and place. Thank you Lord.
Amen...